Revive blog =)
Been a year since i updated this blog already hahaz... blogging craze has not been my interest anyway.. Many words are not meant to be said.. maybe it is better by typing =)
recently mood had been very down as i am very affected by the people around me... i wished to change but something is stopping me from changing... temper had been bad... i feel very sorry for my family cause they had to endure my temper... been worrying about so many things in life recently and it is really affecting my daily life...
What i can say is that different people got different thoughts and idealogy... Dun try to change them as you will only get disappointed in the end... Many things that we see or hear may not be the truth also.. Whether its real or fake does not matter to me anymore... i just wish that you can live happily... there are somethings that i just cannot accept...
Therefore i choose to remain silent.. I am still trying to let go but the state of emptyness is stopping me... i dun understand why i landed myself in this plight... all along maybe it is me who has been thinking only... Maybe i think too much in the end... if that is the case, you can do what u want.. I do not want to see the day when something really happen... If u really cannot control your own actions, i will only left in disappointment... i will not say much but just choose to left silently...
Well enough of emoing, i am thinking of trading futures full time as a career... It will be a very daring move and challenging job whereby there will be no CPF =).. however the returns will be much more than a salary job.. Furthermore it is my dream job as i enjoy the thrills i get from it... really hope that i can work a career out of it. Will see in future if i am able to carve a career by myself...
Shall end off with a sentence... (i choose not to say my problem as i dun wan to burden u or make your life unhappy.. maybe i am just one of the "important" person in your life.. what i can say is that, i am really disappointed in your actions)
somewhere over the rainbow.
[8:02 PM]
